*****November 3, 1999**** HI! how is everyone? im great i feel great. Been keepin busy, etc. Uhm im goin up to school thursday to get some stuff and stay over have a good time and look for apts for next semester. I hope i can get spoerls old one.. if not whatever. I guess i have to pick classes soon too. i cant wait to go bck to school though. I got a cat scan yesterday at 8 in the morning. had to drink berium again that stuff is horrible, i fed exed the xrays to my surgeon at sloan dr dematteo, he got them today but he didnt call me back yet. nothing has changed tho dr hoover looked at them already, so thats good news. i just have to wait for my body to recover from the last surgery he said. i just want to get it over with asap. this week in general has been very busy.. penn state this sat though goin to see the game and hangout at jaimes and liz's place! tomorrow will be busy too. lots to do, which is good though because sitting around the house sucks. as you can imagine :) uhm oh kelsey torpey and pledge trash are sick, everyone wish them a speedy recovery. i think im workin up in the lv mall at a&f so if you are around come visit me. i am definatly writing a book about all this shit ive been through and how it affected my life and if you are reading this, you are probably going to be in it.. should i use fake names? you tell me. they should make a movie out of it too. oh thanks again to everyone for their support and stuff i couldnt have done it with out you all. but i was thinking today my life has really sucked ass recently, and it has but whatever. i am getting two more tattoos tomorrow one on my shoulder and one on my back at 6 at this place called altered shades in allentown, the guy is amazing and he gives me discounts cus i like neurosis as much as he does plus hes doin neurosis artwork on me anyway tomorrow so ill probably get more of a discount, if youre gonna get a tattoo go there. ok im going to bed bye oh bye the way, the guestbook is not also an email, if you wanna email me just fuckin email me(ei trash)

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well well.. everything has been going very good recently.. nothing bad to report. i feel great except my scar it hurts from the muscles healing and closing back together but i just have to take painkillers. um what else all good news from doctors. the next surgery isnt any rush just gotta wait for my body to heal from the last one for sure and then hes gonna go in. the guy is amazing.. does 2 liver surgeries a day.. he has to open me up and take the rest out and im cured. no chemo.. dr. dematteo at sloan kettering.. you know you only need 1/8 of your liver to live? and it grows back.. i didnt know that... they wont have to do that to me.. i think theyre gonna like lazer and freeze the little cancer spots on my liver, i think theyre are 30.. but whatever.. he says the operation is very routine. im soooo lucky.. christ. what boggles my mind in dr saltz at sloan says ive had this shit in me for around 10 years cus i never had any pain or anything..this whole thing is soooo bizarre..isnt it? 1 case in 7 years.. that reminds me.. very sad news :( listen to this! some kid named vincent also, 4 years old has the SAME thing i did(adrenal carcinoma) i have but his is inoperable :( i need to call his family and tell him to go to sloan kettering hospital. my mom is gettin their number. i need to talk to the family. isnt that horrible?

yesterday my aunt cheryl and i thought it would be nice to surprise my mom at school and her class, i brought her roses and a card.. and candy for the kids to thank them for the the cards they sent.. then i stayed and answered questions from the kids they were so excited..